My FAITH runs deep within ME.

I woke up one morning and looked at something that was not meant for my eyes, it stirred an emotion in me, and then came all the thinking which then led to praying.....

I did not study the bible. I do not attend mass every Sunday, I do not need to be in a church to speak to my GOD, he is wherever I AM, he LIVES in ME.  There are too many religious notations out there, I'm not here to address any of that, it's simply not my place, never will be.  I DO know that my God is Good God and I have FAITH, that's all I will ever need.

When I a young preteen my mom's friend Lisa, who eventually became a pastor, would come over to our house and teach us how to pray and sing for us with her guitar.  Around Christmas time she would take my sister and I to her company party's which were held in an airline hanger, they were AWESOME!  The hanger was filled with toys, candy, games, moon bounces and SANTA too!  I have some great childhood memories because of her but that's not reason that I cry when I think of how grateful I am to be touched by her gift.  She left her mark on me.  I remember sitting in our dining room with her, I know my mom was not too far away listening, she was talking to me about God and Jesus, she asked me if I was ready to ask God into my heart, I don't recall exactly how I responded, but I remember those precious moments while she held my hands, praying with me and guiding me through the process.  I will never be able to explain that incredible spiritual moment, that moment is my miracle, it brought ME to GOD.

I often cry when God speaks to me, wouldn't you?  Its a bit overwhelming.  My three year old daughter came over to my bed and asked "mama why you cry?" my immediate response was "because GOD is speaking to me." I then remembered what my mom said to me "baby your a vessel here, to do GOD's work."  She's right, I am just beginning to understand WHY I must experience certain things and walk this path of mine.  I may have made certain choices to get here, but this path was chosen for ME, because only I can see it through, and its purpose is NOT for ME.

On this one, AMEN!

WHY I LOVE ARTIST

I haven't felt like myself for sometime...I can't even write about it anymore. 

What brings ME back and makes me FEEL ALIVE....MUSIC that sings to my SOUL.  

Artist are amazing!  I could sit for HOURS and HOURS singing my HEART out.  HOW do they KNOW??  how do they know exactly how I'm feeling??  

Miley's Wrecking Ball - I did go in like a wrecking ball and now I DO feel completed WRECKED! 

Pitbull feat Danny Mercer OUTTTA NO WHERE - its NOT good that we HURT everyday...and YES sooner or later that spark does just disappear - outta nowhere.  

Sara Bareilles GRAVITY - this is the ONE that describes ME BEST, here's the lyrics, amazing:

"Something always brings me BACK to you.  It never takes TOO long.  No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm GONE.  You hold me without touch YOU keep me without CHAINS.  I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.  SET ME FREE, LEAVE ME BE.  I don't want to fall another moment into your GRAVITY.  Here I am and I stand SO tall,  just the way I'm supposed to BE.  But you're on to ME and all OVER me.  You LOVED me 'cause I'm fragile When I thought I was strong.  But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is GONE.  I live here on my KNEES as I TRY to make you SEE that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.  BUT you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.  The ONE thing I still KNOW is that you're keeping me DOWN".  

 

BUT I'm going to END my night with THIS ONE by SIA:  

"I'm CRITICIZED, but all your BULLETS ricochet.  CUT me DOWN, but it's you who'll have further to FALL.  Ghost town and haunted love, Raise your VOICE, sticks and stones may break my bones, I'm talking LOUD not saying much.  I'm BULLETPROOF, NOTHING TO LOSE, FIRE AWAY, FIRE AWAY. Ricochet, you take your aim, fire away, fire away.  You shoot ME DOWN but I won't FALL, I AM TITANIUM".  

YOU SHOOT ME DOWN, but I won't FALL, I AM TITANIUM!!!  BE RESILIENT! 

No matter WHAT happens in LIFE just KEEP moving FORWARD!